Every now and then someone will say to me, “When you wrote and published Forever Kalei’s Mom, you took something bad — her death — and turned it into something good.” While I might not totally subscribe to the accuracy of that statement (it implies a conscious plan, and the book was anything but that), I appreciate the meaning behind their words. For me, the something of value (sorry, I just can’t use good) comes from the sum of three things: Kalei’s life, her death and the grief…..
When death happens out of sync with the circle of life, a strange type of time mapping begins – at least it did for me. It started with identifying current time in hours since Kalei’s death, rather than the actual clock time itself. It was not 6:00 o’clock or 10:00 o’clock; it was 10 hours since she died and then 14 hours since she died and so on. Far too soon, I had to acknowledge the word ‘day’ in my new time perspective……
The idea for the three sections or lifetimes in the book comes from a photograph. How that picture came into being was either the result of a simple misunderstanding or it was meant to be. Either way, the end result is the same. As the one-year anniversary of Kalei’s death drew near, my sister Karen asked if I had anything special planned for August 20th. I told her I was heading out to the cemetery first thing in the morning as I…..