In Loving Memory
Kalei Jasmine Holizki
January 23, 1985 – August 20, 2001
“My Sweetie Pie, today marks
eight years since you died.
There has been much change
this past year.
I no longer ask the question,
“Why did you have to die?”
Nor do I ask God for a miracle
and your return.
Deep in my soul, I finally understand
He cannot bring you back.
I have also learned
asking “why” does not matter
for there is no answer to that question
that makes any difference.
And now your name, once spoken loudly
by many is barely a whisper in a world
that has ceased to know you.
Now my unspeakable cries to the heavens
beg for the strength to continue living
without your physical presence while watching your
last earthly marker — your name — disappear as well.
On those days, the weight of my sorrow
continues to be unimaginable.
In spite of these changes
I am learning to walk upright again.
It takes a mighty effort to do so
for sometimes your spirit alone
is not enough to sustain me.
Then, I am thankful for the brave few
who understand and support my need
to keep your name and presence in my life.
For there is one thing that has not changed…
my longing for you, just like my love
will last forever!
I love you my angel
and I miss you soooo much!”
Forever,
Kalei’s Mom
