In Loving Memory

Kalei Jasmine Holizki

January 23, 1985 – August 20, 2001

“My Sweetie Pie, I have buried so many

so many dreams in the past 7 years.

Graduation, university, boyfriends

and countless other growing up ‘firsts’

that can never be. One by one,

my mother’s heart has laid them to rest.

My head understands they should have died

the moment you took your last breath,

but my heart still grieves for each unfulfilled

dream as their time comes and then goes

leaving nothing but grief memories.

Without you here to give them life,

there can be nothing more.

With shoulders bent from the weight

of that knowing and the echo

of the never ending unimaginable

scream pounding at my soul,

the longing for you today is as profound

as it was 7 years ago.

Sadly, with no new memories, time

continues to force an ever widening space

between your life and mine.

With each passing day, I find myself

steering my longing to be with you

towards the future rather than the past.

The where and when of this particular dream

is as yet unknown, but without a doubt,

we are together again!

Until then my angel,

know that I love you and

miss you soooo very much!”

Forever,

Kalei’s Mom