In Loving Memory
Kalei Jasmine Holizki
January 23, 1985 – August 20, 2001
“My Sweetie Pie, it is 10 years now…
I miss you so much! I can’t help it, I just do.
Time became both hated enemy and
grief teacher the second life left your body.
With heartless determination that second
turned into minutes, hours, days, weeks, months
and much too soon…an unimaginable year.
One year turned into two, three, four and well,
just so many more. Oh the agony of time!
I suffer through that endless march and the
lessons I must learn while on this journey.
Some days grief pain comes unannounced; other days
I see it coming. Today, is one of the latter for I knew
I would be adding a new measure to my grief… decade.
Sweetie Pie, I don’t like it when the space
between the end of your life and the present
is given a new name; like a convenient interval
when nothing could be farther from the truth.
For me it is a loud and ugly reminder of
how much life you were not allowed to live.
Today, I am back where I started…on my knees.
Oh Kalei, the longing for you to be here has not eased.
How could it? Time, whatever name it is given,
will not change the fact that I will always long for
and then grieve over the lifetime
we should have had together.
My angel, I love you and
miss you soooo very much!”
Forever,
Kalei’s Mom
